bergeje ria :p

hahaha. i think i've started this day with pleasure and good hours sleep, as to keep maintaining my good mood night and day, but i don't know why i somehow ended up thinking these things :

i've been craved the words inside of me, replying it over and over again, conversationing in my own head, i know all the very words i want to spoke out, i know it better than anybody or any living beings else, and so i planned it well so many times with times and places specified..

but.

stupidly it only turns out to be like this.

i was in the very right place at the very right time, with the very right person though, the words were all inside my head, but all i did was sitting there, evaporating the words and thoughts into thin air and then i smiled and said nothing.

and if someone asked me why, i'd just thanked myself from being sane enough.

in a sudden slipping thoughts i could just reasoned myself that i don't have to say a word. because all that i ought to say is written and spoken everywhere else, along with its very facts. and that maybe all i had to do is just simply being there. to be there. to support.

even without saying a word.

well that may be better, though. i don't know if it's things i thought very carefully or a sudden instinct i should've put myself into.

and now i'll just..

keep on doing it.

waiting for the moment that.. maybe someday.. i'd say those words. if God ever permits me to.